Getting All Emotional

It's new year tomorrow. A magical time of the year where all social rules end. It becomes "acceptable" to get pished beyond belief and a sign of a good night is having some one like me help you, or waking up in a police cell.

It's also the time of year I get all emotional and slushy. I volunteer for the shift. 6pm-6am 09-10.
I did it last year. We don't keep assualt figures for this shift. They go unreported, unless it is really bad.
So I'll be on the streets of my city as part of an 80 strong medical team for around 100,000 people. Last year I had a huge colleague that can smell trouble. I was with him the year before too (when I was young, and clueless.)
This year, because I've got "experience" "under my belt" (I thought my trousers were under there)
I won't be with the same guy. I'll be with someone of similar or less experience. So I am bricking it a bit. Still, as we are "newer" we will be in a safer area of the city. (i.e. the one with police everywhere.) I just have to push that wee red "panic" button and instantly my people tell the police's people to throw police officers at us.  So that's not too bad.
Still, if I remeber one thing he told me: "If your guts feel bad, be careful. If you can identify any danger walk away and call in police. If it's just your guts, stand further back."

I'll be sure to let you all know I'm alive in the new year. lol
I'll be fine. I just worry way too much. (You might have noticed by now...)

Wishing you all an amazing ambulance-free, trouble-free New Year.

Crash Landing in Singletown.

I'm single again. =(

To be honest, it never really felt right from the get go. About a week or so, and we decided to call it a day. We are still however friends. It was a mutual decision, so I'm not too cut up about it.

Guess I'll just go back to normal life for now.
What I will remember, is how he helped normalise being gay to me. How he made it feel acceptable and okay to be gay.

Is it too much to ask for Mr Right to hurry up a bit?
I'm only 17, I'm sure when I'm older and a bit more mature I'll find someone.
Still, would be nice if he hurried up.

Christmas

Merry Christmas all.

I hope you all had wonderful days.

I got a new jumper, it's pretty sweet. Fits too.
I have enough chocolate to open a shop too...

Dead excited for January. I go back up to uni in January, and consequently back out of the closet and also back to my better half.

2 weeks and I'm already pining... lol
Not long now...
Mum casually stated she thought the whole Uganda thing was really bad, so I suppose that's a plus of being home. Maybe she won't mind too much when I eventually tell her...

I do hope the law doesn't go through though.

Maybe 2010 will bring better times for the world, and more selfishly me. eek, selfish times.

Castoffs has gone?

I've just noticed that when I click on Castoff's from my blog roll it tells me the blog is not found.

Mr HCI are you still blogging?

*Edit* Don't panic. Mr. HCI is still here. 

Nearly Christmas

It's nearly christmas. The time of eating too much, and being interrogated by family on girlfriends. :S

Good thing it's just parents and grandparents. ;)

It's even snowed over here. I can't wait to get out and make stuff with it.

Have a good christmas all.

Well, huge turnaround.

Counsellor went swimmingly. Now in touch with someone who specialises with LGBT people, so win in that respect.

I may have also got myself a boyfriend. :)

Spending a large amount of time texting and msning... ;)

Life's taken a nose dive, upwards.

An Appointment Made

Monday at 4. That's when I will see this counsellor for the first time. Probably not the last.

I'm already nervous as hell It's not even the weekend.

*sigh* Things have looked up recently so that's not too bad.

Anyway, back to my exam revision.

Waiting

I've still not heard back from the counsellor. The woman told on Friday it might take a wee while, but I'd expected to have something by now. Not sure if I should e-mail them to ask or just wait another day or two.

Things have been typical round here, but have thankfully calmed down a lot. I did some of my volunteering today. A 17yo male collapsed so I was called out to that. It turned out to be a simple faint with no tangible cause. Everything was fine on examination, a paramedic arrived after me and confirmed this, so we went on our way leaving him with some advice. That's about as exciting as it's been.

I'm just hoping the counsellor will be quick and e-mail me soon. I'm just ticking over for now. Passing each day as it comes.

I get less people running up asking if I'm gay now, so it's calmed down in that respect too, which is nice. Things almost seem to be heading towards a norm now. University is a very accepting place, I've not had anymore contact from anyone at school except for true friends, or two people who seem intent on reminding me verses in the Bible. I'm not sure how to block e-mails, so I just delete any I see come in.

I had a pretty funny reaction from someone today. "Great, can we go shopping!?"
I said: "That's a stereotype, not all gay people like shopping."
"Aww, okay. Sorry."
"SO when do you want to go?" (I don't mind it, I didn't buy anything either, so bank account win)